The week before Valentine’s Day, Part 3

By: May Rostom

2 years ago I wrote an article about how I’ve been a jerk to me all
along. 2 years later now, I'm not that much of the jerk I used to be,
but I often still mistreat myself. 2 years ago I decided that I am more
worthy of my love, that I should come first, and that before I
appreciate anyone; I shall learn to love and appreciate myself first.
And I quote:
“Dear Me:

I know I've been a jerk for not talking to you more often and I
apologize for every harm I've done to you , I'm truly sorry for taking
you for granted and I regret not writing this to you earlier. On
February 7th of each year from now on I will celebrate your existence
one whole week before I celebrate anyone else's. I promise to be the
best friend you can ever dream of having. Dear me, let’s start over!”

That paragraph up there pushed me to be a better person. It encouraged
me to take risks, be happy, have faith, and live life with no regrets.
This paragraph was all I needed to feel loved and self-satisfied. It
showed me that it’s ok to make mistakes, as long as you’ll dust it off
and keep going. It showed me that your heart can carry more than you can
ever imagine, whether it’s love, hope, pain, or despair. It taught me
how to give Me a helping hand, and only when you save yourself; you can
save others.

On February 7th, 2012 I decided to celebrate a part of me I have never
discovered before; the successful, faulty, beautiful person that I am.
The one that makes mistakes, admits them, learns from them, and rises up
again.

The one that has no regrets because simply God always teaches us a
lesson hidden in every obstacle we face. The person that not only has
faith in herself, but in God and his reasons.

How am I celebrating you wonder?! Not flowers, not chocolates, and not a
card. A simple prayer just to say thank you for everything, good or
bad, will just do the trick! Are you in?